#71

Dear past,

We all know that you are one of the biggest ghosts of the present and the future. I just wish and hope to see more of the goodness in you, more than the haunt and fright you are causing me most of the time.

Sincerely,

the one living in the present and is fearful of her future

#70

Dear happiness,

It’s been a long time. I missed you so much. I never knew that a single reese’s cake could make me the happiest person on Earth! Or maybe, I’m just finding a reason to be extremely happy because I never felt like this for a long time. But whatever the reason maybe, I’m entirely happy and very thankful for that.

Sincerely,

the girl who sees the sunshine

#69

Dear Muse,

You’ve been away for so long…

I miss you. Please come back soon. I miss expressing myself. In fact, I already miss myself, writing. Why is it that when I have so much to say, is the time I can’t express myself the most? Why? I need you muse. Please.

Sincerely,

missing you

#68

Dear second week of August,

I’m just halfway near the end of you but I feel like this week has been really dragging. I feel tired already. Tired for reasons I don’t know, or haven’t acknowledged yet…

Sincerely,

I can’t put into words what my exact feelings are right now

#67

Dear chat conversations,

It seems like I’ve reached the point that you are not good enough already and that I need more means. I need more intimate contact, like hearing the voice of the person I’m talking to, I want to hear it more often. The presence of the person on the other end, I want it more often. The silence, I would also like to also hear it more often. The absence, I want to lessen it by minimizing the distance.

Today is the start of something bigger, something deeper, and something more creepy. But we’ll see how this will take us.

Sincerely,

emotions flowing over restricted mediums

#66

Bakit hindi ko magawang mainis sa’yo?

Makita lang kita mula sa malayo, nanlalambot na ang tuhod ko. Makasama lang kita, sumasakit na tiyan ko. Matignan ko lang ang mga mata mo, bumibilis na ang tibok ng puso ko. Sa tuwing mapapalapit ka sa akin, nakakalimot na ako sa sarili ko. Sa tingin ko, masama na ang epekto mo sa akin at sa buhay ko.

Sa tingin ko, kailangan ko na lumayo sa’yo. Mapanganib ka.

Ikaw ang pinakamapanganib na tao sa buhay ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko nagawa o kung paano ko hinayaang pumasok ka sa buhay ko. Ngayon, natutuwa at nagsisisi ako sa mga ginawa ko. Masyado nang malaki ang damyos na naidulot mo sa akin. At nakakainis isipin na handa akong tanggapin ang lahat ng iyon, kahit ano pang bagyo o delubyo ang dumating, makasama lang kita, ayos na sa akin. (At sa pagsasabi ko ng ayos, ibig kong sabihin, ayos lang kasi, ikaw na ang pinakaayos na nangyari sa buhay ko kahit gaano pa kasakit ang mga posibleng mangyari, kinaya, kinakaya, at pilit kong kakayanin ang lahat ng iyon. Dahil sayo. Oo. Ikaw nanaman. Dahil sayo.)

Kung sakali man na dumating ang panahon na manghina ako, sana ikaw naman ang umalalay sa akin kasi hindi ko ata kakayaning magpatuloy sa buhay kung wala ka.

Masakit isipin na ganun ang epekto mo. Kahit na hindi ko gusto ang nangyayari ngayon dahil sa hirap nito, gugustuhin ko kasi gusto kita, kailangan kita, ngayon at habang buhay. Ikaw lang. Wala nang iba. At sana…

Sana ganun ka rin.

#65

Dear patience,

Even the one believed to have the most of you can sometimes fall, too.

Sincerely,

losing you

#64

Dear wants,

You don’t know your worth. What if, you only consider yourself as a want, when in fact, you are just like me, only undervalued?

Sincerely,

needs

#63

Dear self,

When will you be ready to take risks? You already have the one worth taking risks for. What are you waiting for? A reason to take the risk? Isn’t he a good reason already? Do it. Now.

Just do it.

Sincerely,

it’s all for your own good

#62

Dear ones with unrequited love (whether acknowledged or not),

You always give love yet you do not receive anything in return. Whose fault is this? Have you asked yourself about the possibility of this: have you given the one you love the chance to love you back?

Think again, dear ones. Think again.

Sincerely,

the one crying to be given the chance to love you back